Tears

I cannot subside the tears I cry no matter how hard I try. I can't refrain from feeling this pain. Can't put a veil over this well of water that flows down my face, as I have seemed to misplace the happiness that once graced my presence. I can't rid this sense of despair. I can't dare pretend not to care. To afraid to admit that I'm an emotion mess, stressed beyond any breaking point I thought I once possessed.My life's such a drag, bags under my eyes, a red face that cannot lie nor deny that I've been crying. Dying to know why it has to hurt this bad, make me feel this sad. Hard to imagine that something that took so long to make could break so easily. Wanted to have my cake and eat too, now I have neither my cake nor you. Wondering selfishly, why didn't you try harder to make this work with me?! Angrily cursing you out. Tell me why did you have to doubt what we had? Trying so hard not to be mad, but was I really that bad?! While I smiled, glad that I found someone worthwhile, someone that makes me happy, genuinely sappy, thanking God for finally sending me someone that was good to me, you longed for more and left me in misery. It's wrecking me emotionally, but I don't want you to see how much this is damaging me. I wish I could shut down my heart, secretly hoping that these tears I cry would hurry up and dry. But I realize that these tears will not subside no matter how hard I try.