Dreams

Daunting, haunting me through the night.
Now I can't get these thoughts out of my head.
Vivid, descriptive images,
that I take of you to bed.
Don't lay down, I tell myself,
because you invade my mind when I sleep.
It's bad enough I think of you when I'm awake,
must you entice me while I slumber deep?
Too hard to hide in my sleep,
feelings that my heart does not wish to show.
Too hurtful when I wake up,
and realize the falseness of the images as they go.
Too disappointing to admit,
the beautiful visions that I've seen,
Unrealistic for me to want,
Of you what I had in my dreams.
So I lie awake at night,
to avoid what is true,
Don't want my dreams to let me know,
that I'm completely in love with you.
Because as soon as I close my eyes,
images of you appear.
And my dreams let me see
what my heart seems to fear.
I'd rather lose hours of sleep,
than dream of all the opportunities with you I miss,
I'd rather have you in real life,
than in my dreams like this.