Lesson Learned (Old)

It's like the sadness never ends. As I rid myself of one pain, more madness begins, and I wonder "can we really ever be more than friends?" At one point in time I thought that we can be, but then you turned around and hurt me, had me crying silently, wiping tears quietly, ashamed that you had me crying over the same thing constantly. Blaming myself for the pain, swearing that I'll never let you hurt me again. I'm supposed to be too strong to cry over a man. Sick of going through the same cycles, me sitting around idle waiting for your call that never comes, thinking that I must be dumb to succumb to tired lines you gave, knowing that I must be brave and face the grave thought of living a life without you. Knowing that I had to make it through, and realize that the bullshit you fed me wasn't true, stop listening to what your heart wants me to do. Start doing things that benefit my heart, no longer letting you you tear me apart. So no more am I settling for less, tired by all the stress you caused me, blessed that I finally took the time to realize, that you are just like other guys, all that time you wore a disguise. And all the while I played the fool, making you look cool because over you I would drool when you wouldn't do the same thing in return. So I'm taking a queue from Usher and letting in burn. From now on. you are no longer my concern. I'm taking back my love that you didn't earn, and I'll take the shit you put me through as another lesson I had to learn.